Bye Bye Gym, Letting Go Is Good

I had a decent practice this morning.  My hamstrings felt brand new, and my shoulder was feeling much better. Last night, I finally took my yoga teachers recommendation and rubbed castor oil all over my body and let it seep into my overstretched muscles.  Castor oil is supposed to soften muscles.  I woke up this morning and the strain that I was feeling in my hamstrings for the past 2 months from doing at least 55 forward folds almost daily for was magically gone.  During my practice my teacher pointed out that I was turning my hand the wrong way in marichiasna 1 and 2 which contributed to my rounding of my shoulders.  She taught me how to bind correctly which will hopefully open my shoulders more.  I experience a nice shavasana and was able to go a little deeper in my mediation, which I guess I am proud of myself for doing since I struggle with meditation. 

Later that morning I went to zumba at my gym to dance and have fun since I had the day free to myself.  When I got there it turned out that my membership was put on hold for November when it was not supposed to be.  I decided that I did not want to reactivate my membership this month and then have it cancelled starting in December because I didn’t use the gym in November yet and I only have about 10 days left in the U.S.  Before I left I went upstairs to say goodbye to the fitness director Maria and also to scope out my hottie trainer friend J.  I knew Maria for about 8 years; I met her when I was going into my sophomore year in college at Sportime.  I would say it was a bittersweet goodbye, since I was cancelling my membership for good.  It was bittersweet because I love the gym.  I have so many good and bad memories about the gym.  The gym saw me at my best and at my worst throughout my journey.  It was sad to say goodbye to a facility and people that seen me trip and fall and pick myself up again and again.  It was a sweet goodbye because I realized that I am very attached to the gym.  Looking back, I feel that being attached to the gym hindered my spiritual growth always.  So it was sweet to let go of an attachment enabling me to be free and grow as an individual. It will also force me to be outside more in nature.  I can’t wait to take walks around my neighborhood, bike ride on the trails and rollerblade the boardwalk at the beach.  It will also help me face my fear of death. I fear that since I am a young female and if I am by myself, someone might take advantage of me or hurt me.  This would always stop me from doing activities that I want to participate in like rollerblading, jogging and biking on trails.  It always helps me to remember that life is about living in the present moment and doing what you want even if it means letting go of your fears. By letting go of my fear of death, it allows me to live in the present moment, allows me to live a more meaningful life where I comfortable and connected to myself and others.  Most importantly it allows me to enjoy and explore the world I live in!